a-fragile-sort-of-anarchy:

My new meds make my skin throw a fit. It’s not terribly bad, just a few things here and there, but it’s bumming me out because I’ve never really had too many run-ins with acne.

My four-year-old sister, however, is under the impression that it’s just “3D freckles”, and that they look very, very pretty. She wants all of my freckles to “pop out”, especially the ones across my nose; they’re her favourite.

And it puts me in this weird position where I can’t say, “No, this is acne, and it’s bad,” because I don’t want to teach her that it’s a bad to have unclear skin, you know?

Because the more I think about interactions I have with children, the more I realise that children will consistently compliment “flaws” until they’ve been taught not to.

Like, a kid at the library, whose sister has vitiligo, saw my scars once and suggested that his sister and I should be cats for Halloween, since I have “tabby skin” and she has “calico skin”. “I can be a black cat,” he immediately added. “It’s not AS cool, but they’re the spookiest.”

When I started losing weight, my little brother immediately demanded that I gain it back, because I wasn’t as comfortable to cuddle with anymore.

And my other little sister always wants to wear her paint-stained clothes to school so that “everyone can tell [she’s] an artist”.

I don’t know. I guess talking to little kids just reminds me that all of this superficial shit we worry about really is 100% made up.

letsrecover:

The top recovery guide articles people come here and to youreatopia.com for. These are recommended to read so you can educate and prepare yourself. 

1. Phases of recovery
2. Extreme hunger (about bingeing in recovery)
3. You are not a unicorn
4. The fitness trap
5. The Minnesota starvation study
6. Disproportionate/rapid weight gain explained
7. Insidious activity (about the dangers of exercise)
8. Bloating and stomach troubles
9. Water retention
10. The renovation
11. Calories are your bodies money
12. Veganism/801010/HCLF

pigmenting:

sometimes i forget how many times i’ve picked myself off the floor, how many times i’ve washed away smudgy makeup and put myself to bed. how many times i’ve said no to something unhealthy. said yes to something good. how many times i’ve treated myself with kindness and patience. i forget how many times i’ve tended to wounds and made peace with my own anger. if i was taking care of a body that was not my own, i’d believe i was doing everything i could. so here’s to remembering that i’m doing the best i can.

caringsuggestion:

You’re not fake simply because you act differently depending on the person you’re with. Different personalities bring out different aspects of your personality. You’re complex and multidimensional; it’s beautiful.

kinkyfenris:

just fyi, not coming out is by no means the same thing as lying

healingsuggestions:

if you’re looking for a sign, this is it. please keep going, keep making it.

ceires:

• drink a glass of water
• put on chapstick/lip balm
• clip/file/paint your nails
• take three deep breaths
• put on fuzzy/comfortable pants
• say something outloud that you’ve been thinking
• look up pictures of dogs or cats (or any animal you like basically)
• walk around your house
• go outside (if you can) and look for plants/flowers
• take pictures of said plants/flowers
• stretch your arms
• if you’re sad try to smile as big as you can and take a picture of it
• cheer up
• it will be okay