Tag: autism tag

xmyautisticlifex:

butterflyinthewell:

Sometimes autism isn’t cute. Sometimes it sucks.

It’s not fun to have a constant urge to scream, punch my head or slam my head into things.

It’s not fun to have to thrash my body around to get an unpleasant sensation from somewhere inside myself to stop.

It’s not fun to feel like electric current is running through my skin when I sit too still.

It’s not fun to have my entire brain overwhelmed by a noise nobody else notices.

It’s not fun to not be able to start “simple” tasks because all the little steps to take in order to start feel like a mountain to climb.

It’s not fun not being able to tell somebody something because I can’t get my brain to lock words and their meanings together to form a coherent sentence in writing or via speech.

It’s not fun having people accuse me of yelling because I talk louder than normal so I’m heard, and then having everybody get annoyed and tell me to repeat myself if I talk quieter.

It’s not fun being unable to understand the person talking to you from a foot away because the room you’re in is full of chattering people.

It’s not fun not being able to manage a simple task like write a phone number down because the room is too hot, too cold, loud, chaotic and bright, and it feels like trying to write while skydiving through an F5 tornado and landing in a tsunami, and everybody is pissed off at me because “writing a phone number is so simple!”

Sometimes autism sucks.

Sometimes isn’t always.

But sometimes.

Sometimes.

It sucks.

When I very first started finding the autistic community online I felt a little isolated, because there was so much autism positivity and at that time in my life I did NOT like my autism at all. The positivity has been wonderful and helped me accept myself a lot more – but I think it’s also important that we sometimes talk about how HARD autism can be, because it IS hard. I want both positivity and encouragement, but also the ability to talk to other people and say “hey I had a meltdown today and it was awful”or “today I’ve been struggling with sensory overload and I’m not feeling awesome about my neuro-divergence”and have that understanding and compassion from others and see their struggles also so it feels less lonely. 
Basically, i think a positive focus is great, but focusing on the positive exclusively doesn’t provide belonging and support for those going through bad times, and quite frankly is not realistic. 
So really… thanks for acknowledging that it sucks sometimes. I feel that.  

captain-liddy:

the-moon-loves-the-sea:

the-moon-loves-the-sea:

captain-liddy:

Someone: Make eye contact or no one will trust you, you bridge troll

I, a humble autistic: 👀

Me: makes eye contact

Them: stop staring omg

Turns out too much eye contact with no smile means ‘I want to kill you’ and too much with a smile means ‘I want to kiss you’ and how does one find out what is enough but not too much? Who knows???

the forbidden knowledge

spacemancharisma:

being accommodating for people is not hard.

prime example: my dad, who doesn’t even know he’s doing it.

context: I am autistic (my parents refuse to acknowledge this). I take things people say at face value. example of this: one time, I was about fifteen years old and I was carrying something for my dad. he said, “you can drop that right there.” so I did that. I let the thing fall out of my hand and drop to the ground. my dad had a moment of “what the-!” and then he caught himself. he laughed a little and said, “well, I did say you could drop it.” then he said, “I’ll be more careful with how I say things in the future.”

and he has been. he laughs a little as he does it (it’s become an in-joke in the past few years), but every time, he says, “gently place [insert thing] on the ground.” and I know exactly what he wants me to do.

it’s not hard. figure out how people work and do your best to work with them.

theserpentsnight:

I love how all the “signs” of people lying are symptoms of adhd or autism because when I listen to people listing off these so called signs Im just like…cool so none of these people will ever trust what I say apparently lmao. Lemme just break down the ones that I do:

1. “Avoiding Eye Contact”

Autism. I hate eye contact

2. “Weird Ticks or Fiddling With Body”

Autism. I’m textile and I like to touch things

3. “Putting Objects Between You and Themself”

Autism. I don’t like people getting too close because I have a bubble and I hate being touched, breathed on, etc

4. “Weird Facial Expressions/Not Emoting Enough”

Autism. Emoting is something that i have to consciously do and sometimes I get tired

5. “Adding Unnecessary Details/Talking Too Long”

Autism and Adhd. I can get obsessive with small details, slip up and miss my cue to let someone else talk, and get too excited about something that seems unimportant to others

6. “Sudden Pauses/Trouble Remembering Detail”

Adhd. I can be on a roll with what Im saying and in the next second forget absolutely everything. Then I have to mentally back track to the beginning of the conversation- sometimes going as far as reexamining my surroundings- just to catch my train of thought again

7. “Answering a Question With a Question”

Autism. I feel like this one applies to many people who aren’t even on the spectrum but sometimes I just want to make sure I understand the question dude

8. “They Tell a Story That Keeps Changing”

Adhd. Sometimes I tell things drastically differently because I’ve gotten sick of telling it the exact same way, but the important details will stay the same

justexecutivedysfunctionthings:

when your working memory is absolute shit garbage useless so you’re always forgetting appointments and the names of people you’ve met recently (and for about three months after you’ve met them) and verbal instructions given to you five seconds ago

but your long-term memory for things like obscure facts about your interests is so good that people get pissed at you for your short-term memory problems because clearly you’re just faking it, right? /sarcasm