PARTY TIME *throws confetti* *cries a little* *eats entire tortilla chip bag*
hello lesbians. this was my very first post on this website and i am happy to announce the party has still not stopped. yee, (and i cannot stress this enough) haw
YO PSA!!!
If you get a link like this from one of your tumblr buddies, DON’T OPEN IT!!! IT’S NOT THEM THAT SENT IT!!!! IT’LL FUCK UP YOUR TUMBLR AND SEND THE LINK TO OTHERS ON YOUR ACCOUNT.
EDIT: Shit! I might have to make a new account. This is screwing up my tumblr and one of my side blogs has been deleted.
Too bad I didnt see this sooner. If you get some random message from me guys, heres a thing.
Ughhhhhh this fucked up a blog I had been running for 5 years and I lost so many followers and i got locked out of my messenger, my ability to tag things, my whole theme/page setup, access to archives, everything. If you ever get a link like this from me or crying-for-the-moon (personal blog) DON’T CLICK IT. It sends a message to every mutual you have if you let the virus in. This link sent messages to hundreds and hundreds of people from my other blog and fucked up their blogs too. This shit is bad news.
Hey guys, just spreading the word.
Heads up dudes. I read this things happening to some people over here. I personally will not send links if I wasn’t asked to, or agreed before in a conversation.
Christian nationalist Mike Pence is going to have to swear in two Muslim congresswomen on the Qu’ran. This is filling me with an immense amount of schadenfreude
please listen to this poor man losing his shit as he reads an article blaming millenials for killing the mayonnaise industry that was written by a babyboomer upset people don’t want to eat her bland salads anymore
It’s not fun to have a constant urge to scream, punch my head or slam my head into things.
It’s not fun to have to thrash my body around to get an unpleasant sensation from somewhere inside myself to stop.
It’s not fun to feel like electric current is running through my skin when I sit too still.
It’s not fun to have my entire brain overwhelmed by a noise nobody else notices.
It’s not fun to not be able to start “simple” tasks because all the little steps to take in order to start feel like a mountain to climb.
It’s not fun not being able to tell somebody something because I can’t get my brain to lock words and their meanings together to form a coherent sentence in writing or via speech.
It’s not fun having people accuse me of yelling because I talk louder than normal so I’m heard, and then having everybody get annoyed and tell me to repeat myself if I talk quieter.
It’s not fun being unable to understand the person talking to you from a foot away because the room you’re in is full of chattering people.
It’s not fun not being able to manage a simple task like write a phone number down because the room is too hot, too cold, loud, chaotic and bright, and it feels like trying to write while skydiving through an F5 tornado and landing in a tsunami, and everybody is pissed off at me because “writing a phone number is so simple!”
Sometimes autism sucks.
Sometimes isn’t always.
But sometimes.
Sometimes.
It sucks.
When I very first started finding the autistic community online I felt a little isolated, because there was so much autism positivity and at that time in my life I did NOT like my autism at all. The positivity has been wonderful and helped me accept myself a lot more – but I think it’s also important that we sometimes talk about how HARD autism can be, because it IS hard. I want both positivity and encouragement, but also the ability to talk to other people and say “hey I had a meltdown today and it was awful”or “today I’ve been struggling with sensory overload and I’m not feeling awesome about my neuro-divergence”and have that understanding and compassion from others and see their struggles also so it feels less lonely. Basically, i think a positive focus is great, but focusing on the positive exclusively doesn’t provide belonging and support for those going through bad times, and quite frankly is not realistic. So really… thanks for acknowledging that it sucks sometimes. I feel that.
lavenduers 