riceisholy:

drowning4youu:

some of the saddest phrases in the English language:
– but you promised
– ive never told anyone
– i can’t do it
– i tried
– i trusted you
– why did you do this to me
– why am i not good enough
– it still hurts
– i can’t keep pretending

Damn I just went through a relentless hurricane of past memories from those phrases.

I think it’s a bit sad that there’s still lingering feels of hurt, but i’m grateful for what i’ve learned from that hurt.

I’ve learned:

• promises aren’t always kept
• ur not alone in feeling the way that u do
• ur a hell of a lot stronger than u think u are
• so what if u haven’t accomplished ur goal or goals (yet), u tried and trying is a lot better than doing absolutely nothing at all
• test scores and grades do not define u nor ur worth
• it’s ok to not know what u want to do with ur life
• whatever form u take, it’s gnna be fab
• people will come and go throughout ur life (which is totally normal). Some will stick and some won’t. The ones that do are the ones to trust.
• just because it’s family doesn’t mean u have to tolerate any verbal and/or physical abuse   
• there are some things u shouldn’t pour ur heart into
• it’s ok to take things slow and go at ur own pace
• ur feeling are valid, always
• people will surprise u…and as much as it sucks to say it, personally from my experience it’s best to have low expectations for the sake of ur mental health and emotional well being.
• babe u are always, always enough. People who make u feel otherwise can kindly fuck off.
• there is nothing wrong with masturbating boo (making urself feel good is totally ok!)
• some things aren’t just meant to be
• cut the toxic peeps out of ur life asap (when it is safe to do so)
• self love and care is a powerful thing
• things will continue to hurt the more u bottle ur feelings and keep it inside
• u owe ur sadness nothing
• u are not a bad person for wanting to die
• asking for help and getting help is totally ok and does not make u weak at all 
• don’t let anyone step on u or peer pressure u into doing something u don’t want to do
• u won’t always feel this way
• things will be ok eventually
• u are loved even when it doesn’t feel that way and yes u deserve to be loved
• forgive urself (before it’s too late)
• and above all, please be kind to yourself